the temperature keeps rising

i cant help it but to feel unjustified for myself. i understand the need to push for it but please spare a thought for me. i am not a perm working adult yet. i am still going to further my studies and this is the last longest holidays i will have before i slog for the rest of my life in a few years' time. i am supposed to be enjoying every single moment of my life now and not suffer in pain and agony.

we are humans, not robots. how are we supposed to hit the unrealistic target? we have tried our very best but we are still under the target. how? extra hours? is it really the best solution? i believe our productivity drops drastically after 630pm. we are unable to get sufficient rest and the tiredness snow balls to the next day. so overall, the productivity does not seem to be there anymore.

the worst part is i feel that i am paying for a mistake that i have not committed. there are many external and internal factors, which are inevitable, slowing down the process. so how can you expect us to speed up and handle these factors at the same time? multi tasking? why dont you watch us do everything for a day and maybe you will see the light.

i appear to be very childish because i cant accept the harsh reality of the working life. i understand that hard work pays off but i am not willing to work that hard now. this is not the time for me to start building my career. i am just asking for some fun in my life. i do not want to live a dull and boring life, with only work revolving me. i want to spend time with my family and friends.

i truly admire those successful career women.

"dont be someone you cant be"